aiyoo..

27-02-06
Aiyo..luke is sick again =( wanted to hold on the record for months until he gets sick again....but mission failed ......besides fever, his asthma is triggered too...so all come together like a dunno wad combo for me...I hope there's nothing else more for me...altho compared when luke's a baby when he's sick this is no 'kick'...

Babies and toddlers get sick very xing ku...caretakers also...they'll constantly make lots of noise especially in da night....different babies chu different patterns..luke is the keep wanna bao bao kind..

01-03-06
"I hope there's nothing else more for me...altho compared when luke's a baby when he's sick this is no 'kick'... "

i underestimated it....luke fever gone up to 39.7 on tuesday noon..im lost for a moment..colin was working still n only can leave until 6..it's about 4 pm then...I called up the specialist clinic..that girl advised to bring luke to da children A&E immediately as Luke took panadol already but din bring the fever down still...

Like crazy woman lor..he crying away..but no choice put him down..faster pack his stuffs..took a cab n off to NUH....dread that place alot..going there means nothing good..

Reached there wait n wait...was directed to the fever tent for a brief checkup cos he was running a temp u see n they are very particular with patients who has it. . I dunno probably it's becos of past SARS and bird flu...anyway i guess it's good to be cautious then sorry later on...

So after that brief checkup, they concluded he can go back to the normal A&E children area to wait for his turn to be fully examine by the doc..his crankyness continued...keep telling me he wanna go home! Argh and bao bao bao bao....later on hanxun came over awhile from sch (nearby ma..hor hanxun? *winks*)..he pei me until colin came n everything's done.

Doc's conclusion...Luke's caught a viral infection..suspected from colin..n these kind of viral fever takes about 3-5 days to recover n the temp ranges from 38.3 - 40 degrees. Paracetamol can only bring down the fever when taken..but will not take away the fever..only until his own body meet on terms with it...

Well, today's da 3rd day...glad that his fever is gone from late morning until now...Luke requested bowling early in da morning..as granted lor...cant tahan his nagging..brought him out awhile to great world treat it as take a walk ba..else at home very sick sick like this..to our surprise, da fever went down down down n didnt come back...

I think this logic is quite interesting..it happened to me before, i guess partly it's due to one's mentality ba. Dun really koe how to explain..but it seems like when u're doing something u like or enjoy or looking forward to something, u'll feel less pain...in luke's case fever gone down..
just like who koes it might have made him even more tired going out...but of course i'll observe lar..he shows wadever reaction, it'll be put into immeadiate consideration ma...

heehee..today me = sleep well......*hopefully ba!*

simple.

Everyone's asleep but me..very tired but just dun feel like going to bed yet. Sometimes I just enjoy the tranquillity in the night.

Well just spoke to kaya on the net...guess he havent change a single bit still the same...but the kind of feelings he gave was totally different from wad I knew him the last time. At least things are cleared for all once again, he'll always remain as my 'shifu' and I hope one day he'll find his true love ^^.

Was occupied almost the whole day stocking up food. Went market in the morning get fresh meats to freeze, Great World for lunch and cold storage get some Jap stuffs then finally to Imm for dinner n Giant for round 3 of stocking up. Heard a song in the cab which caught my attention while im on my way to great world..was wondering wad the title could be...until when we reached and headed straight for lunch, I heard it again...can u believe it? Two different radio station playing the same song within the same hour and i caught them...OooO so I tried to guess the title..I ask hua cheng and he told me the title and my guess was right...heehee feeling lucky.

Brought luke to his fav baby hangout...da imm playground. Ever since he learnt to walk, he'll climb n play the slide deserting the wheels which he used to play when he's still a baby. But today was different, somehow he walked over and held the baby wheels...I ask him "Luke, can u remember last time when u are a baby u played with these wheels before?" He gave me a sweet smile in response. From the same height of the baby wheels, I could tell luke has grown much taller since the last time he played with it. Well couldnt help but to slow down n think how time flies huh...

Luke's already 2 which means im a mummy for 2 yrs already..definitely happiness rules over sadness in these 2 yrs..besides seeing his physical development increasing not to mention emotional too, it's really great to be growing with him. There'll be a day he'll have to start his own family and so on...By then I shld be retired..hopefully can do more of the things I wished to when i was young..and spending the rest of my life with my companion peacefully..

feelings

A break away from my routine these few days...alot of feelings involved...happy...sad...angry...pek chek all comes in...definitely I'll choose the first one and delete the rest.

Sometimes things just dun seem to happen the way u wan them to.. u wont feel happy but then again if everything goes in ur way smoothly then there wont be suprises and experiences to make u feel the presence of certain things and treasure it or rather u'll feel crippled later on..always clinging on to some support..

Different perspective sometimes lead to quarrels...unhappiness.....how nice if could just sit down and listen to each other's heart - felt words.........almost impossible.........

Feeling extremely -_-,
my feelings are restricted...buried...totally suppressed.......................................

Someone had taught me to see things in positive ways.....but i'll still use the word.."hopefully" I wont write anything similar to this anymore.....................

sweet

though this is not right, i'm still gonna tell u
i'm sure of my feelings for u
its definitle not a relapse or anything along that line,
I really do like you,,,



sweet sweet sweeeeettttttt!

rubbish bin

Usually this month of the wk it's exceptionally tiring and long hours for me cos colin be working night shift the whole wk. Im kinda used to it but it's the entertaining luke part which really wear me out. But hey not too bad this wk after all...managed to meet up pri sch frens yesterday for a drink somemore it's V day..time always pass so fast when u're occupied with something u enjoy. Quite like to have similiar mini gatherings with them..altho always so last min and must bring xiao ma fan along but like wei wei says "to chill out abit"....gonna meet them on fri for dinner, this time more ppl coming..

Met fannie, pearl and hua cheng for dinner and after that we went to NTUC cos I need to get diapers for luke. Baby Blyss vomited..all of us were shocked and especially fannie but luckily pearl n HC was there to help to look after the kids while I help her to clean up abit..The vomit is alot and all over the floor...later on fannie called me and asked how's luke cos stephy vomited too before bed time...hope they recover soon be it stomach flu or food poisoning. Im a regular victim of stomach flu so i koe each person's condition varies and recovery time varies too...most imptly, fannie u need to get enough rest too!!

Now is bout 1133pm..im hungry now, chewing on noodles..sick of it but bo pian hungry...so boring no one's online today...where are u my rubbish bin~~

Time seems to pass so fast when u're enjoying something...well didnt koe it was gonna be 10pm yesterday till the man shouted that they're closing at the toy departmental store...and luke was crying frantically for dat thomas train screw driver toy...he wants it..despite we telling him they're closing n stuffs like that...then bo pian lor..see he cry so xin tong..bought for him!

So he was happy and we headed to yoshinoya at cine to continue our bits of suanning n conversation with hanxun and andrew..but that andrew not steady walked with us halfway n told us bye haha wad else but becos he's with his girl..but we can understand la!!

within an hour or so..we reached home..luke's still being excited with his new toy..took some time to calm him down...after he's asleep im hooked on da net with a crappy person until 4+ am..tho this person's concersation with me is always crappy but I actually enjoyed talking, at least it's different at night not too bad...

Woke up at 8 plus definitely shack ar...wanna catch more sleep but hard luke goes "mummy mummy" and showed me that pampered face...ARGH! wad else i can do but to "sayang" him and get up start cleaning him and stuffs like that..hopefully later can catch a nap!! Need a big net catcher..!!

Oh ya chatting with those cool ppl now again..topic seems nvending plus the yahoo group thingy..fun and happening man!! And I declare i've just acquire a new rubbishbin!! HOHO it's in for more..................mom just called me going concert tonight tho i dunno wad concert isit haha..!!

booboobooooooo

Seems like these few days have been adjusting back to da same normal routine daily...which means Im once again tied down with house chores...they're endless...just like cycles...for eg. clothes..u wear them..wash them..hang them...fold them...wear them..n hence repeat the rest again...

Im always complaining bored...y? since I have so many things to occupy me..it's not physically it's mentally bored...guess I need a break..but it's difficult lar..I've ever tried putting luke over in law's place or with my mom...in the end I'll keep thinking of him n no mood when outside..sometimes worst is when I picked him up n found that he's doing or playing with something he shouldnt have done so which they allowed..but u cant comment much...cos in da first place they helped u look after ur son.

Recently neglected those books which I've borrowed..cos in the afternoon when luke;s napping i'll either do house work or hooked on da net...n i;ll be too tired to read in the night when he's asleep..

I wrote the above in the afternoon now continue part 2...went to Great world city for dinner just now..luke so cute..while I ordering food for him..he asked the waitress for his edamame cos his habit to have them in his bowl..tried feeding him with other food but he didnt wan anything except da beans..then bo pian i have to order chawanmushi else he'll only have beans for dinner..

Well after dinner to where else but the arcade..for his bowling, basketball session...after all those he saw the "catcher" for sweets and gummies 1...one of the sides the gummy is gonna drop down into the hole already..so I asked colin to try..but to no avail...until the 5th time which we spent $5 already..luke went to press the button to let the handle down to grab up sweets n guess wad...he got the gummy..he was so delighted n me of course seeing him and im happy heehee...

After arcade brought him to kim seng bowl..saw this fat guy..very pro..his ball curves deeply and he strike all da way...cool man..!! waited for da stupid cabby so long in the end call cab...reached home bout 10 plus le...and here I am after luke's asleep.....

hope he sleeps well...sweet dream baby luke!! tmr gonna be a long day for me again.....wad to do..this is life!


[Sometimes I feel too dissappointed to be bothered with ur stuffs anymore..but dun be too much till it affects luke...It really dissapoints me to hear u said those words...wad can I do to make u understand wad I've said issit must wait till a day something happen or wad then u'll understand? I hope not...dear. Do u understand....I bet u dun till now yet. I hope one day u will....when it'll be will I be able to wait..well time will tell wad's true and wad's not ba...there's always a hole in da heart...difficult to explain also...]

Brought Luke to the doc for check up again...he has recovered from cough n still on long term doses medication..head to westmall n watched movie till evening..then home..

Feeling messy and confused...i believed some ppl would have asked the same question as me.."can things be rewind and replay" haha but the ans is definitely "NO" impossible...Irony in our lives..probably if u go tru it well u'll get to see less of it..well..i've seen a few...like wad i wrote in my phone...


...........Sometimes feelings can be so sucky sometimes can be so wonderful..sometimes we'll feel sad or happy..Y isit sometimes but not always..Life is full of ups and suprises. It can be interesting when it attracts..can be boring when we're sick of same routine can be so ironic this feelings thingy..since every thing is wad u've chosen..But 1 thing im certain..love endures everything ..with love comes possibilities and happiness..........

I think I havent found mine...have u?? Im crappy....

Happening January

Happening January for me! First was New yr...my bday...luke's bday...cny...meeting up mummies...meeting pri frens again =)

It was raining on off on Luke's bday..Luke's mood was like da weather after his nap..kept crying n didnt wan to see anyone. He's really irritated..and on that day we all didnt koe wad's wrong..until during the night I found out he caught stomach flu from me..darn virus again! I vomited...but it's a diff condition for luke..he had diarrhoea n i took him see doc for medi. Took a few days for him to fully recover. Except for Luke's tummy the 'party' was great seeing frens coming with well wishes..and sort of a mini gathering for everyone. Luke got presents and ang bao. The best present was uncle martin super big radio mini cooper for him. He eyed that since the last time we brought him shopping...


Lunar new yr not too bad for me this yr..managed to visit 2 of my aunts so long no see those kind..of course including cousins everyone's all grown up. This is the first time we're staying alone during this festive season..didnt koe chinese got alot of tradition for the old ppl...colin's mom told us some..and bought alot of tibits and bla bla for us...(kinda waste money cos we dun eat alot tibits but it's kind of her so probably trying to retain some tradition).

Colin took a wk off + leave during the festive but this one wk seems so fast...brought Luke to bowling a couple of times he enjoyed pushing da ball to roll although he cant carry it..but it seems that he's got colin's genes in liking this bowling thingy..met up with jac and fannie one of the days after bowling...brought da kids to arcade.. so fun!! seeing them so amused with the games..cos great world arcade have machines cater for kids..like adults' liked bowling basketball and the rolling ball upwards 1 dunno call wad haha...

Just yesterday met pri sch frens again...this time with the effort of hanxun being so naggy smsing yahooing bla bla everyone..we've got bout 10 this time..!! Seen ppl like weiguang ziang and cerong after a long time..dinner was kinda sucky for me and colin..cos luke lor..he didnt wan to have his dinner and probably cos of environment the lightings wasnt bright enough n unfamiliar..he didnt like the place n keep wanna go outside play the floor lights. Managed to get in and out of their conversations..with laughters carry on...haha..we took many pics and went mac cos colin pig is hungry still ate mac...tot he was piggy enough there's another pig wenxiang!! The rest just settled down continued talking and andrew had to help me keep luke entertained with the balloon playing.

Suddenly heard thunder liked sounds..i didnt realised wad was it till they said "FIREWORKS!" Wow...so nice to match those feelings meeting up with this group of nice frens..everyone ran out to see..and left colin behind looking after da things hehehe..I carried luke out to join in..meiyi was like asking me to faster and ask wei wei take a pic..we were standing and posing so long till i asked wei to hurry...then she replied..."taking video" we were like "......." hahahha...but it's really nice right at da moment seeing the fire works and so on with these long time frens..and I told hanxun "wad a good organiser u r to include fireworks.." hahaha tho we koe it was not his work..

Happy and nice feelings~~ hope everywk can have this feeling once...then time will be easier to pass and happier....wah wah weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!