my ah luke ahhhhhh......

Was in the bus on the way home from ikea, Luke suddenly pointed at the temple n said "China China" it made me couldnt stop laughing. Then Colin tell him its call a temple not China. So cute dunno how did he associate that although usually temple comes from China. This reminds me of another incident..when he was bout 3 yrs old, whenever we pass a church or see a cross, he would go "GOD so love the world" he call church that..then we told him its call a church and a cross. Saw some baby pics of Luke at Colin's facebook album, Luke has really grown alot n I miss all his baby moves n language.

Every day including us, we are constantly growing n getting old in years. Sometimes I wonder how much memories will be left in my head when im really really old. .

Just once..

I did my best
But I guess my best wasn't good enough
'Cause here we are back where we were before
Seems nothing ever changes
We're back to being strangers
Wondering if we oughta stay Or head on out the door
Just once can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
Why we never last for very long
What are we doing wrong
Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right
Make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to itI know we could break through it

I gave my all
But I think my all may have been too much
'Cause Lord knows we're not getting anywhere
Seems we're always blowing whatever we got going
And seems at times with all we've got
We haven't got a prayer
Just once can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
Why the goodtimes never last for very long
Seems we're always blowing
Whatever we got going

Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right
Make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it
Just once I want to understandWhy it always come back to good-bye
Why can't we get ourselves in hand
And admit to one another
That we're no good with out the other
Take the best and make it better
Find a way to stay together
Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right
Make the magic last for more than just one night
I know we can break through it
If we could just get to it
Just once
If we could get to it

Toys n more toys ..

Went Vivo again this evening to get the phone hope every effort is made worthwhile. Giving things to others is a joy not necessarily receiving only, I dun mind getting more things to give ppl if Im loaded.

Updates on Luke, he's been in a habit of getting a 'toy' home whenever he's out for shopping with us. Recently he bought a whole lot of board games n today we went toys r us n look around at the board games section n realise he almost have them all already as tho they're some kind of his hobby collection. He bought a game name 'zingo' it's quite educational, it plays like 'bingo' but using pictures n words instead. He told me his fav. game is chess altho he still dunno how to use tactics to counter his opponents but im really glad he's able to place the different pieces on the chess board correctly n understand the objective of the game already.

Two days ago, went mustafa with mummy. As usual Luke is there to hunt for toys n mummy is there to stock vitamins. The interesting thing is the adult vitamin are placed at adult's height level and the lower shelves are the children vitamins. Luke got so bored waiting for mummy to pay up n he too shopped for his vitamins haha he choose two bottles n asked mummy between the two which is better for him. Mom gave her suggestion n he reluctantly put the other more 'attractive' bottle back. He made me laughed, he's like a small adult shopping for his own vits imitating the adults. I think an adult's behaviour to a child is very impt, they will learn n imitate all the good n bad.

As for myself, tummy growing bigger n bigger each day going into the 6th month already. Imagining within 3 months more baby will be in my arms.

Well Colin n Luke are sound asleep right now, am gonna join them soon..sometimes I think back, its not a bad thing that some bad things or unexpected things happened to u. It is just to prepare u for ur future, u'll start to cherish or change for the better which u'll never tot u'll be. Wadever as long Love is between, everything will bloom automatically.

Another spending day..

This morning was kinda screwed up...didnt have a good meal for the whole day. Went to John Little sales with pearl in the late noon n spent bout $300 for luke, baby n me stuffs. This month I have been looking n shopping for baby's clothings especially newborn sizes. Gave away Luke's last time so its also a good excuse to get new ones for baby.

Luke is horrible..this month he spent alot on buying toys but i still cant figure out y daddy bought him the Ryukendo figurines today they cost bout $100 altogether but i didnt wanna ask further either. Seeing that happy face of Luke makes me happy too :)

Been having blues lately again, nobody trigger it but could be worsen if some idiot would say or do something to piss me. I dislike that bluey feeling..I keep telling myself to 'wake up' because I would start to think bout past happenings n keep concentrating on the negatives which made me feel worse n deeper in. That's horrible how nice if they got sell any gadget or wad to chase away the blues...

Gonna choose a date between mid till end sept for baby's delivery. I wanted it on Oct 1st doc say cannot will be too late incase it becomes emergency again. Dunno to give birth earlier or later..consider the fact of sleepless nights, coping with two children n perhaps stress? Dunno..I guess if hubby's supportive enough everything will be fine..

I believe for husbands n wives to be in love n together till they die, at least trust n commitment is important plus the supportive attitude. However few achieve that, I hope to n still hope to...sometimes its very hard to guess wad ur partner thinks or do or perhaps afterall is u urself thinking too much n later causes bla bla n bla to happen. You koe some things is like once bitten twice shy but wad I learnt is place ur faith in God n do not worry!!